- someone said the sky was falling (but when i looked up, all i saw was your smile) - Tuesday, September 15, 2009 this is one of those days. i get the feeling that i've lost myself somewhere along the way between the spring of this year and where i am now. it is difficult to pick up the pieces when they have scattered to the far-flung reaches of the world, buried beneath the ground and hung from the stars. i don't have wings and my hands are not strong enough to dig that deep. so where am i now? i'm sitting on the ground, my fingers coated with dirt, the last trickles of soil spilling between the cracks. it's not easy. i need to stand up. (it's difficult.) i have to stand up. forget today in the car going to a lesson that doesn't make sense anymore, watching the black night stretch across the sky. forget the construction lights shining into my eyes (i wondered if i looked desperate then). forget the words he told me, something about fixing something that can't be fixed (you cannot undo what has been done). forget those tears (they tasted salty on my tongue). it hurts a little bit more each time i stand again. (how long will it take for me to give in?) i'm lost. (where are you?) Labels: hush [secrets are hard to tell], musings

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- Peer Pressure - Saturday, September 12, 2009 I caved in. You guys win.

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